『こんなに辛いのは自分だけ』と感じている人に見てほしい。その理由を動画に込めました。
Hello everyone, this is Aya. Today is Saturday. I was back at my parents’ house. I’d finished preparing meals for my parents (for stock, as well) and cleaning. I went to a cafe to take a break. My father is showing signs of dementia and has an extremely abusive personality. I’ve never been allowed to talk back since I was little. If I upset my father, he would cancel our trip the morning of the day. My mother has been mentally and physically weak. Due to my father’s cognitive decline and worsening emotional abuse, She became so weak that she spent most of her day in bed. Break’s over. I’m heading back after picking up some groceries at the supermarket. Today is Monday (a national holiday). I spent the three-day weekend at my parents’ house and returned to my apartment. It was really hot during this holiday, so as you can see, I spent the whole weekend in short sleeves. Autumn is the most comfortable season, but it feels like it’s getting shorter and shorter. I get hot easily, but I’m not particularly good at dealing with the cold. Spring is also a “hot” season for me. I’m sweating (boiled octopus) most of the year. Autumn is the only time I feel like a real human being. If autumn, when I’m at my best (and cutest), is so short, my life is over…orz “When I ever get a boyfriend, I’ll have time for drinks with him.” I brought back the limited edition wine I bought from my parents’ house. I was dreaming of saying “Ta-da!” and serving the bottle in front of my boyfriend, but damn it. I’m currently working full-time and working overtime late every night, so… I did the laundry early Saturday morning before going back to my parents’ house. This dehumidifier is a lifesaver, and I’m so glad I bought it. This channel is my life. It’s like a diary, chronicling my real life. I post about my work and my parents as a diary (record). Well, that’s why I get all kinds of DMs. “You’re a liar, you say you work in a factory!” “You’re such a reckless spender, I can’t handle a woman like that.” On the other hand, I get comments like this: “You work in a factory, but you dress up and act like you are a career woman.” “You pretend to be a capable woman, but in the end, you just look like a factory worker.” And so on… I’m a masochist who gets excited every time I get a DM like this, lol. It’s true that I worked in a factory as a temp worker, but what’s wrong with that? I’m exhausted from working overtime on a business trip and not getting enough sleep. It was proof of my incompetence and far from being a career woman. I was extremely poor at the time, but I managed to get a temporary job working in a factory. I was able to make a living. However, at the time, I was a day laborer, earning ¥6,892 a day. I wasn’t reimbursed for transportation expenses, so my take-home pay was about ¥5,800. But I was so tired that I ended up eating and drinking at an izakaya as a “reward.” I made the fatal mistake of crying over the amount I’d spent, which exceeded my daily wage. I was looking for photos from my factory days. The only photo I could find was of this izakaya. Eating out wasn’t something I could afford. I think I must have been very happy.^^ He(Viewer) told me he couldn’t stand the way I spend my money. I save, invest, and spend with the money I earn myself. I don’t hesitate to spend money on trips, meals, and gifts for my family. Then I start saving again and put the money toward investments and savings. Once I have some money left over from saving and investing, I start a cycle of rewarding myself and my family. I think I’ve achieved a pretty good balance. Above all, strangers have no right to tell me he can’t accept me. I can’t accept you either, lol. Life has changed since the days when I could buy bread crusts for lunch for just a few yen. Back then, I wanted to get married and become financially comfortable! And I thought about this every day. Without a permanent job and no income, I thought it was a bit tough to live off of other people’s money. That’s my excuse for not getting married, lol. Today is Thursday. I got home from work. We had a holiday, so I only worked four days this week. It should be easier than usual, but I’m feeling incredibly tired. It’s a mystery.^^; It’s suddenly gotten chilly in the mornings and evenings in Tokyo. The factory (manufacturing) world was wonderful, but I changed jobs because it was financially and physically demanding. I’ve changed jobs several times and gradually increased my annual income. Changing jobs as a woman can be quite difficult, and once I reach a certain age, I’m always asked the same question. Do you have plans to get married? What will you do about work if you become pregnant? Are you caring for a family member? I wonder if male interviewees are asked this kind of question. Ironically, when I answered that I had no plans for marriage, pregnancy, or caregiving… Caregiving is the only thing that’s starting to seem real these days^^; (Marriage should be a reality, too.) Ahh…♡Healing Fermented Food One-Plate Meal “Tada!” I’m drinking the wine alone, not waiting for a miracle. I’ve finally become financially independent. I’m finally confidently looking for a partner! I’m giving my parents their dream trip abroad! But then my parents’ situation got worse and worse, and they needed care. I had no time for romance. Some people are the type who, just when something starts going well, something else goes wrong. Everyone, I’m a prime example of that, lol. Bullying at school, power harassment, and sexual harassment at work. I’ve been through it all. It may take time, but as long as you keep your mental health up, you can get through it. I’ve always endured it that way, so I want to persevere and believe it’s up to me. Even though it’s physically and mentally exhausting, It’s cute that I always have a big appetite (huh?) As an aside, I’m a mollusk whose thumbs bend at a 90-degree angle, so I can’t use my thumbs right. It’s also cute that I’m always struggled with pushing toothpicks and thumbtacks (huh?) Pino pistachios are delicious. Whether you like it or not, time just flies by. It’s 7:00 AM today, Friday. My dad is always yelling, “My life wasn’t meant to be like this!” It’s really hard to calm him down (why is it always someone else’s fault?) I know that nothing will change unless you have the will to change. So I’ll do my best today too. I feel like I’m ding every day, and I’m revived every day. I messed up. I can’t believe it’s this shape. That’s just me! So cool…lol Thank you for watching again today. Let’s do our best!
皆様お疲れ様です！
頭はボーナスのことでいっぱいの私です。
それまでは仕事を辞められないと踏ん張る毎日。
目の前にぶら下げられたボーナスに、走り続けております。
さて、
いつもとは違うテイストのコンテンツですが、
これもまた私のリアル。
皆さんと共有したいと動画にまとめました。
人生って悩みが尽きない。
むしろ悩んでいる時間の方が長くて、何のための人生か考えてしまう時があります。
みなさんの目には、私の人生はどう映りますか？
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07:59~ Chimera by Shima
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